Blood on my hands.

I've been keeping this under drafts for 3 months. I've been typing, deleting, almost sad about how I'm unable to get this out to the public before the story dies. 

In reality, every story dies. 

I have had a long break for writing. I took no or little effort to reflect on most things that's happening because of two reasons. One is, I have simply lost count on incidences. I get lost mid-way in the research, find something mildly less of a hassle to handle. Secondly, all cases are likely to be replaced with something else. 

I want to talk about Afghanistan. I want to bring back the story of Israel-Palestine. I want to talk about Sri Lankan murder fiascos (I mean why not because there's heck of a lot), but the truth is that the shelf-life of each story is too short for anyone to react to it. I have been slacking off and brushing every story under the carpet and I'm not proud of it. Writers need to be independent beings. Practice your autonomy. We don't have political parties, we aren't sexists, we aren't racists and we don't have a rule book. Imagine the things we can write if we have zero bias. Crazy good stuff. 

Humans are given emotions so that they can show it and I believe that feeling such emotions without fearing judgement or thinking about how to monetize it should be something normal. It should be a "thing", if I am to say it in the rawest form 🙃

Humans are machines. We are made to forget things. Scientifically explaining, people forget (sometimes forgive) due to a phenomenon known as interference. Likely, writers write only about things that results in a boomerang of gain and forget about everything the second its posted. If​ the information is not retrieved and rehearsed, it will eventually be lost. That's why people don't care until they are force fed trauma. 

I say blood on my hands because I've been glued to the phone, scrolling through what - the surface of problems. I'm constantly guilty about not doing/ writing enough. We all have privilege of a great network where we can use it to raise awareness (even on the minor things that no ones pays attention to!) It really does sometimes makes a difference. 

So ask yourself - when you advocate for your rights, your safety and your freedom, your passions (anything!) - are you also including the rights, safety and freedom of people who don't look and sound like you?
If not, none of us are truly liberated (at least by subconscious).

Final POV (I swear).

It's told you cannot fill an empty vessel that doesn't want to be filled. The human brain and carafe are like two sides of the same coin. Not wanting to learn and/or inability to be open to "pedantry" or/and giving in instead of your negative emotions, fear, frustration envy, ego (whatever the foundation you hold high) will prevent you from grasping any knowledge from any source.

Self-learning is indispensable for this very reason. You cannot fix stupid/ignorance. 

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